I wonder
who will miss me if I go missing.

I think I need another solo cycling trip again.
I need to calm my mind.

I'm starting to dream of you rejecting me. You told me you liked another girl. I couldnt take it again. Is this repeating itself again? Do I have to cry myself to sleep again. I dont believe it has to happen again..

The dream is so real. I cried in my dreams, waking up with tear patches on my pillow...

I think I'm scary. Maybe 10years down the road, when I read this post again, I will still think so.