This post is me being rebellious. so dun read if u dun wan to waste your time.


ok, i'm super pissed off now.

just let me ratter on and on in the post.

dont you realise that i'm a J2 this year, having lots of workload on my hand already.
and you are still planning for me to take up more students?!
2 is more than enough.
3.5hours a week, i can do alot of things can.
apparently, your fren's son's results are more impt than your daughter's one huh.

so pissed.
and why do you need to meddle into how i manage my money, how i spend it.
I only spend on things that i need can!
ARGH.
i'm already 18years old, and i worked b4, so i do know how hard it is to earn money, so STOP nagging to me.
i dun understand why is it that the things that i quarrel with you is ALWAYS regarding money.
sometimes, i dun even feel like coming to this house and face you with all these.
but i hate it when i try to escape.
i wanna face the problems.
and pls, stop telling me that you nag because you care. cuz if that is so, you care so much that i'm already suffocating from it already.

yep, i know. i'm getting rebellious here. i dun like it as well.
so i already kept my mouth shut at home le.
let this blog be the place where i get to scream out my thoughts, my anger. (though not literally)

I'm getting super stressed.
not that i'm having difficulties in my sch work.
but regarding the commitments I need to commit.
School work, H3, band.
there is this oral defense coming 23rd feb.
and band prac is getting more and more intensive.
School workload is also increasing... jus trying to complete all the school work on time is hard.

all these need energy.
I'm so exhausted.
so tired.
n yet, i know that there is one more year ahead of me before i can hav a proper rest.

but you are not showing me any support at all can.
you always thinks that studying is easy. that alone makes me very pissed.
you dun know the amount of hardwork i put and you jus casually bring it across.
I seriously HATE this attitude from you.
me relaxing for a sec, and you started saying, " I thought you hve plenty of work to do, how come got time to watch tv, if you got the time, why dun wan to teach my friend's son!"
and wow, a whole new argument starts AGAIN.
do you think that i'm some super hero?!
if you are not my mum, i seriously feel like shouting out all the ^%&^%@*#%$#.

gosh, maybe i should try to be like gina, go and cry it all out, to release this amount of stress in me.
cuz i already feel like crying as i type out all this.

ok, christina, chill k.
after this month, you hav 1less commitment le. gambatte.
and there is someone out there for you i believe...
jus hold on... ... ... ... ...