yea, i'm not in NJCSB ex-co.

saying that i'm not sad at all is a lie.
i'm sad, disappointed in myself.
i alady told myself, the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment, i couldn't help but keep holding on to that glimpse of hope.
however, i'm proud of myself too.
i chose to face up to reality, i did not run away when it's my turn to say my speech.

i guess i will still be emo-in 4 at least another few days. dun mind me pls.

mayb this is my retribution for treating NJCSB like tat at the start of the year.
mayb ppl dun noe me yet. cuz i join band so late.

i dunno, i really dunno.
nvm, i shall go emo liao. n try 2 cheer myself up in whatever way i can.


chrisliew suddenly lost her motivation in life. she felt totally lost. totally.